The First Chapter

My eyes are red
Red from the blood
That stains the past that never seems to leave

I am haunted by places
Tormented faces
With words I can barely bring myself to hear

In the weariness of one twilight hour
I find true pain
And it seems eternal
Amber

I will light a fire
To keep me warm in here
And hope to live another light of day

In the weariness of one twilight hour
I find true pain
And it seems eternal
Amber

Tonight, let me sleep, please hold my thoughts
Hold their spirits, hold their troubled souls
Amber

Loretta, in light of my truth
Here I stand alone to try and explain
I'll say the words in a way that is just and fair, controlled and right by you
And I'm sorry I've held on for too long
And I'm sorry I've held on for too long

Was there something wrong in believing in something that brought me peace in my mind
Hopeful dreams through an otherwise obscure life
Yeah, I've held my right to believe it
The days have gone by when I needed it
When I hoped that this bird won't fly away
And love, once I find it, may it always be there to stay
May it never leave me
But I guess it was not meant to be

Loretta, I've prayed for the day when you wake up one morning and you know there was love here for you
I ask you now, how have you fared? What have you done?
Can you still flash that smile that froze me once before?
Once I wanted more until comes the day when you just hang it by the door
And I hope that your life won't be this way
And love, once you find it, may it always be there to stay
And may it never leave you
But then again, that's up to you
May it never leave you
But then again, that's up to you

Close your eyes
Think of mine
Do you still think they love you?
Baby don't say it's another lie

And I know
That my eyes believe
That my thoughts belong to no one else but you
It's all you
I stayed alive for promised love

Did you find love away from pain?
And I know it was a long wait to be alone under your name
You did what you could to stay aground
You did what you could to stay aground

Things have come
And go yet again
But I, I have longed to touch you
I've stayed alive for promised love

And now you found love away from pain
And I know it was a long wait to be alone under your name
I'm thanking your god you're still alive
Thank you God she's still alright

There are times when I want to stray
All night. All day
Oh, I never once believed in one faith
And now is a tad too late

Did you ever wonder, perhaps we're all crazed, just in different ways?

But I hear that you're coming back tomorrow
And I know I will be somewhere higher
Where I feel something deeper
I have been waiting here for you

There will always be lies and truths untold
And yes, you will never really know
Isn't it such a wonder that this sadness is divine
It's a sense you won't find
The sun is setting low
It's tired and for you
There's a promise of a better day

Yeah, I hear that you're coming back tomorrow
And I know I will be somewhere higher
Where I feel something deeper
I have been waiting here for you

Yeah, I hear that you're coming back tomorrow
And I know I will be somewhere higher
Where I feel something deeper
I have been waiting here for you

Wise men came
Here one more time
To stand beside you
Perhaps to guide you
Through the night

And one of them said
"Don't close your eyes. Won't see the light. Deny your sight. Because it's all in your mind."

When I'm all by myself
I could never find my truce
When I'm all by myself
I could never find my truce here
No

How does it feel to be where you are?
With the little that you have
And the little that you've had
Would you blame it all on me?

When I'm all by myself
I could never find my truce
When I'm all by myself
I could never find my truce here
No
Here

Sitting in a lonely room
In a nearby fire
I bid

They may have escaped
Or may have scraped
But I know she likes it when anything gets

Laid back
Enjoy your view
Your sadness will ride by me somehow
It is taking a while for you to breathe

I've been taken for a story told
Left unheard
Echoed out
Oh, don't you see?
There's nothing for me
I'll fall apart

Lay back
Enjoy your view
Don't let it remind you that I was once your own
What would you have liked me to be?

Lay back
Enjoy your view
Don't let it remind you that I was once your own
It's been taking a while for me to breathe
Won't you have minded it
It has to be
Won't you have asked for me to stay?

Watching them living
And I'm asking
"Yes, what have I done?"
Because I feel that I'm slipping away
Just watching the water go by

I believe that I can do anything
If only I knew what I wanted
But oh, I still need to know
And boy, oh, I need to know soon
Where do I go?

I'm aware I have to forge ahead
Because I cannot afford to lose myself
Because it's all that I have left in me
And he knows what it's not going to be
It's not the end
Just watching the water go by

And I feel that I have just been watching you
All the while then it strikes my mind
That my life is passing by
And right before my very eyes
It's not the end
Just watching the water go by